Life with Lotus Maria and Lucian Stone

9/11/2013

Dear Lotus,

Today you turn 8!  You are halfway to 16 and you have 8 years (or twice your current age) to convince Daddy to buy you a car with your name on it.

The past year it has been such a joy to watch you change from a little rambunctious kid to a truly amazing person.  I have had the best time traveling with you and getting to know you.

The other day you were mad at me and mumbled “You want me to be just like you.” That’s not true, but I do want you to seize every opportunity (just like my mom wanted for me), so you can figure out who you are, what you like, what you want to do.  I want you to continue to dance to the beat of your own drummer and not worry about what other people want to do and be influenced only by what the world thinks you should like.  The only way to do that is get out a experience all sorts of things and that’s what I want every time I drag you to something “boring”.

Lately we have had a few conversations about being your “real” parents or if Lucian is your “real brother.  I know it must be confusing and I am sorry that Daddy, Lucian and I can’t relate to this.  We will always try though.  And I know you try to call me your real mom and M your biological mom.  Thank you for doing that.

But what you need to know is that those are just words and all that matters to me is that in my heart and soul you are my REALEST, REAL DAUGHTER. 

I carry this poem in my heart and hopefully you can carry it in yours

Not flesh of my flesh
Nor bone of my bone,
But still miraculously my own.

Never forget for a single minute,
You didn't grow under my heart,
But in it.

I love you sweet girl!

Happy Birthday

Love,

Mommy